"I wish I knew what I know now"

Well hello there buddies! 

I was asked today, by a beautiful pregnant lady, what i wish I would have been told before I had Bruin. GOOD QUESTION and to be honest that was one of the reasons i decided to write this blog, so other new mommies might read this and say.. OHHHHHHhhhhh. 

In all actuality, this child having thing is probably what I expected it to be like (so far..remember i'm only 10 weeks in) lots of diapers, lots of laundry, and crazy sleep patterns. My biggest thing, however, is that I truly wish i would have prepared myself better for breastfeeding. After about week two and Bruin had so many issues, I felt like I was at the end of my rope. I really thought I was going to have to give up. It was so intense, so time consuming, so much more of a commitment than I ever imagined. Luckily, at the two week mark, my mom came to visit and really tried to pound it into my head that it would get easier and that I was strong enough to do it. Even now, writing this, i can't help but tear up at the thought of all this and i'm not completely sure why...DAMN HORMONES! After I went to lactation consultant things became easier and I'm so proud of myself for doing it. I feel like (as strange as this might sound) I accomplished something great for my baby even though it would have been so nice to give him formula at our 3 am feedings. STICK WITH IT LADIES. It's hands down the most fulfilling thing I have ever done in my life. 

Now, after I thought of my response to that question I decided to ask that wonderful guy I live with. "Hey Randall, What do you wish you had been told before I had Bruin." He told me that he wished someone had told us that there was a difference between Newborn diapers and 1. And that there was a difference in newborn clothing and 0-3 month clothing. 

Don't laugh. I know it might sound like something everyone knows, but we didn't. It took us about a week to figure out why his diapers were so large (we were stocking up before he got here, on size 1 of course!) and why his clothes didn't fit. "Hey babe you think we should try preemie!?" 

Oh parenthood <3

*I was emailed this link from a friend. She told me to read the article and I could see how much good I was doing for Bruin even if I chose to stop breastfeeding when I go back to work in the end of November. 
http://www.breastfeedingbasics.com/articles/breastfeeding-benefits-how-they-add-up