So I've been having some serious issues lately when I should be sleeping. Since having Bruin I have the same nightmare EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. Actually, to be honest, it doesn't seem like a nightmare because it's so real and I'm actually awake when I do it.
ANYWAY, (Focus Jessica!) I have woken up every night since Bruin was born thinking that Randy has rolled over onto the baby. I even go as far as to frantically move Randy trying to get him off of Bruin until Randy wakes up and asks me what I'm doing and tells me to go back to sleep. EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. Now let me explain something. Randy has made is a rule from day 1 of Bruin being here that we would not ever, under any circumstances, sleep with Bruin in our bed. He explained he was extremely terrified of rolling over on him. Of course, I agreed and never once in the past 3 months has Bruin been in our bed. And yet, i still have this terrible moment every night when I swear with every fiber of my being that Bruin is underneath Randy leaving both me and my husband with less than a full nights sleep.
Anyone else ever do this?
Will it ever go away?
I hope so.
It's just one of those being a mom worries. It never trully goes away. You will always be on your guard when it comes to the kids. I still am. I used to wake up during the night to make sure Ethan was still breathing when he was little like that. It will get better. Mommies have different instincts than daddy's. We are always worrying when there is no reason to be. It's ok Jess. You are a get mommy and I bet you don't even know it yet.
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